To Be or Not To Be

I guess an update is in order.

Winter Quarter has been very fair to me, though I would like to put in a little more effort towards school. Recently, I hosted the HEAT concert at UCR. It was a great experience to say the least, but I probably wouldn't do it again. But we'll see come next November. Writing has taken a back seat which I'm not proud of. Lately the words haven't been coming to me. I think it might be because I don't know whether to focus on poetry or song writing. Though the two go hand in hand, I feel like there is a difference in the way each style is approached. I've been rock climbing a lot lately. Something about it just puts me at ease. There have been other activities where I feel comfort, but climbing is a different one all together. It's hard to explain. I am officially declaring my major on Thursday. I hope I'm making the right decision.

Reluctance

I don't write in here as often as I would like.

The fact that it's open to the public makes me hesitant to post certain things. I'm scared not of what people think about my thoughts, but my actual writing. I understand that my writing is unconventional and I enjoy writing in this fashion. But sometimes I feel like others look at it like I'm trying too hard to portray a certain style. I want my writing to be pleasing to others.

Other than that, I have to say that 2009 was a terrible year. Much more bad than good happened. But a new year has come and I'm excited for what is to be. I'm embarking on new ventures and attempting things I would normally not try at all. Some things I have been working on/need to work on:

1. Song writing

2. Poetry

3. Reading

4. Rock Climbing

5. Studying

6. Get a tattoo

I remember being on facebook January 1st and people already updated their status' as "2010 is gonna suck!" as if a few hours determined their entire year. I'll take this year one day at a time. Focus is important and I'm going to need a lot of it. I just have to keep my goals in tact and try my best to achieve them. Whatever path lies ahead, I'll be taking a different route.

My strive for the future: Run for President of the United States of America when I turn 60 years old. AZN B4 WOMAN!